urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuckmandi I'm burning like a bridge for your body Mandi Machine. 2007-05-17T15:36:33Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuckmandi:9867 2007-05-17T15:36:33Z 2007-05-17T15:36:33Z none i can't make this clear enough:<br /><b>YOU<br />DON'T<br />HAVE<br />CONTROL<br />OVER<br />ME<br />ANYMORE<br />I'M<br />AN<br />ADULT<br />LET<br />ME<br />MAKE<br />MY<br />OWN<br />MISTAKES.</b><br /><br />stop blaming me for your issues with dad. i appriciate you and everything you've done for me. is that not obvious? i don't disrespect you and i lie to you to protect you from the things i'm really doing. i know it hurts when i lie, but my lies hurt a lot less than the truth does.<br /><br />so, please, i'll comply with the rules as long as you <b>stop trying to control me.</b> and don't ever, ever, FUCKING EVER blame this on matt, ever again.<br />he's the best thing that's happened to me in a while. i just wish you would take the time to stop making judgements and get to know him for the amazing guy that he is. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuckmandi:9672 2007-05-06T19:37:51Z 2007-05-06T19:39:28Z sleeping in - the postal service. one day, i'll come around.<br /><br />tonight should be alright, but every time i have high expectations, i end up disappointed.<br />i'm easily disappointed, i guess.<br /><br />here's my wish list (see if you can grant them):<br />i wish....<br />- i had better clothes<br />- i was capable of keeping secrets.<br />- i didn't feel the need to have people around all the time. that i could be by myself.<br />- i spent my cash wisely.<br />- i was more confident.<br />- you were here.<br />- i wasn't a fifth wheel.<br />- people wouldn't judge so quickly.<br />- my nose were smaller.<br />- i could eat more.<br />- i had patience.<br />- i weren't so concered with the way i look.<br />- i were <b>fine</b> with the way i look.<br />- i didn't get tired of people so easily.<br />- i didn't feel like i'm at fault. all the time.<br />- i didn't apologize all the time.<br />- you knew how much you mean to me and how scared i was last night.<br />- i had cigarettes.<br />- i didn't have to pee.<br />- i felt usefull.<br />- i didn't need you.<br /><br />i hope your days go better than mine. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuckmandi:8544 2007-04-17T17:40:01Z 2007-04-17T17:40:01Z Rocket Power. I wish my cell phone would ring. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuckmandi:8371 2007-04-16T04:33:25Z 2007-04-16T04:33:25Z my first kiss at the public execution - blood brothers i<br />don't<br />want<br />to<br />go<br />to<br />dollywood<br />with<br />my<br />parents<br />and<br />grandparents<br />allbymyself.<br /><br />and<br />i<br />wish<br />my<br />hair<br />would<br />magically<br />dry <br />itself<br />so<br />it<br />looked<br />good<br />no<br />matter<br />what.<br /><br />and<br />i<br />wish<br />my<br />car<br />didn't <br />not <br />work<br />so<br />i <br />could<br />getthefuckoutofthishousekthnks.<br /><br />UGH. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuckmandi:8066 2007-04-15T06:10:26Z 2007-04-15T06:10:26Z Fresh Prince. I'm <b>always</b> cold. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuckmandi:4602 2007-02-24T17:22:52Z 2007-02-24T17:22:52Z Star's mom and brother This is for Star so she can read an entry in my lj.<br /><br />As of this very moment, I'm perfectly content with my life and the people in it.<br />I don't know what I'd do without them.